**Also, the family has set up a blog to keep friends and family abreast of what's going on and also to help reduce the feeling of obligation to update everyone individually. Most of the posts will be duplicates of my posts on this blog, since the family has asked me to update the blog for them.
I'm feeling a little emotional today.
I miss Amber.
We planned to get together last night. Just three days before she went into the coma, we set a date to get together for dinner, chatting, a haircut, and catch-up. We originally planned it for Saturday morning, but I felt bad about her sleepless nights up with Kayla and her broken arm. I didn't want to add a burden that Saturday, and I was leaving town that day for vacation, and we didn't want our time together to feel rushed. We had a lot to catch up on. So we set up a date for a Thursday evening, two weeks from then. Yesterday.
That day we talked about hair, about Kayla and how having Kayla break her arm was a lot harder than Amber ever imagined but that she was "surviving," as she put it. We talked about the beautiful clouds the previous Sunday evening. I told her they made me think of her. She then sent me a video she'd taken of the beautiful cloud-filled sunset that Sunday night. I smiled. I loved that you took a video of the clouds, I told her. "I savored every second," she replied.
When she first went into the coma, I had ideas that by that Thursday, she'd be back with us, that we'd get to keep our date. I knew it would probably be in the hospital, but I thought I'd be able to talk to her by then, for sure.
I didn't get my wish last night. She's still sleeping. And I miss her. I have faith, with all my heart, that Heavenly Father will make her whole. But in the mean time, I miss her. I pray every day that she will be strong enough to take charge of her body again. I pray that Heavenly Father will grant the miracle that we all are praying so diligently for. Amber taught me that diligent prayer and faith can bring about miracles that Heavenly Father may not have initially intended, but is willing to grant if we ask for them.
"The object of prayer is not to change the will of God, but to secure for ourselves and for others blessings that God is already willing to grant, but that are made conditional on our asking for them. Blessings require some work or effort on our part before we can obtain them. Prayer is a form of work, and is an appointed means for obtaining the highest of all blessings." (Bible Dictionary-Prayer)
I believe that God is willing to grant this blessing, this miracle of healing for Amber. He has already granted so many blessings, but this blessing of full-healing for Amber is what I am praying daily, almost constantly for. I have faith that she will pull through. I recognize it won't be easy, but she is strong and so is JP. Together they will fight this. And we will help them.
Tonight, I am once again soliciting your most earnest, heartfelt, miracle-inducing prayers on her behalf. I know God hears our prayers, thoughts of love and concern, and positive energy sent out into the world. I know if we pray together for this miracle of healing, that he will hear those prayers multiplying exponentially. He is a God of miracles and if it is His will, He will allow us to see firsthand a manifestation of spiritual power.
I miss you, Amber. Talk to you soon!
(Expect A Miracle and Pray For One, Too)